joongielove93

 

So, I've been in my new school for about a week now. (Today's a free day yippyyay!)
Luckily for me it wasn't at bad as I thought it would be!
I honestly thought there wouldn't be a single soul talking to me or helping me out.
BUT there's a lot of nice people and they all try to help me out by lending me their books and copying me important stuff.
And because I'm a very organised person I'm already done with catching up all classes haha! I already copied all the stuff they've seen this semester (and last semester too!).
The school is not that big so I don't have to change buildings like I had to in Leuven. The teachers are very nice and the classes are interesting! So I've made a good choice!
Now you might wonder what I've decided to study after that half year of Japanology. Well, I decided to go for High School-teacher for the courses of English and Economics. (big change, I know)

Overall I'm doing rather good. My mood has been a lot brighter since I've started at this new school.
Though I've been having this awful feeling in my left hand. It's rather stiff and painful throughout the entire day, for weeks already.I'
ve been a tad worried but I hope it'll just go away!

My boyfriend has exams next week and the week after so it'll be a stressy time as I don't like seeing him less or seeing him when he has to study as I feel like a burden then. Oh well, we'll get through!

These days the weather sucks, it's cold and windy and it makes me long for a nice warm holiday! I cannot wait to get my ass to Turkey this summer! It'll be amazing!

xoxo

Dear diary,

I haven't been on Livejournal in ages, didn't know what to say, but today I just need to let some steam out.
Remember I told you I was going to Leuven? Well ... Been there, done that.
The first few months were rough, living so far from home and in a place that didn't seem to fit me was hard.
My neighbors were people I had a hard time getting along with, even though they were nice, they were just nog 'my kind of people'.
Therefore after a few months I had decided to move back to my home sweet home and go to school with the train every day, which wasn't that bad because it felt good coming home to a nice warm house every evening.
I struggled with studying for my exams. It took too long and I was mentally exhausted. But I still gave it my best, and it actually didn't feel that hard when I filled in all the exams.
But yesterday I got back my results and I was in a state of shock. The results were so badly that the mentor told me I wouldn't be able to pass, that it was unrealistic to think I'd make it this year. 
Even though I tried my very best, I didn't succeed. And with the view of not passing, even with giving it my all, I realized that university is just a tad too hard for me to cope with.
Therefore I think that I'm going to stop with this study and start over again with a new study in September/October and in the meantime I'm going to try and find a nice job to pass my time with. And earning money ain't that bad either, right?
Luckily everybody is supporting me and telling me I should do what is best for me. They're all proud of me that I gave it a try and that I worked hard for it. Some things are just not meant to be.
Thursday I'm going to talk to another mentor at school to talk it over and discuss the details of stopping. We'll see how it goes.

On another note, my sister is gone for 4 months! She's on an international internship in Bradford, England. She's enjoying it and she's happy so I'm happy for her!

I'm also learning how to drive a car. Trust me, at first the roads might have not been that safe but these days I'm driving without much difficulties. Mom has learned me the basics and actually says I'm doing very good because after only 2 days of driving around on an empty parking I already drove on the street without much troubles. Of course it ain't perfect yet but over time I'll get beter and beter! And then in a few months I'll go and try to get my driver's license. 

And last but not least, it's Valentine's Day, so... happy forever alone day for some of you, and happy Valentine's day to others! Hehe~  trust me, I'm spending mine alone, eventhough I'm in a relationship. My boyfriend is still a very good student, getting good grades, and therefore he is ofcourse in school following classes. We're together for over 10 months and god he's been so good to me. Always there to support me and help me through rougher times. He's a sweetheart and I hope he'll be by my side forever because I have never felt happier!


xoxo

 It has been a while, a long while! But I changed my layout and really felt like writing here~ just don't know what to talk about :')

Let's state the obvious for a minute.

I'm not in Japan.

With all the nuclear stuff going on there, the 10 year long aftershocks, it's for the best. Hope things will resolve for everyone soon.

Other than that, life is pretty fucking awesome.

I went to Barcelona last month, got home and had a boyfriend, imagine that. I've known the guy for a few years already.. well, actually, he was/is my best friend but yea, one thing led to the other and here I am; 17 days into a happy relationship. It's really all fresh and new but I'm definitely liking it.

School has been going alright I suppose; 2 months left of it and then I graduate and I don't know if I'm all that happy with it. I mean, it's nice, being done with high school but damn it's also scary because I'm moving out to a different city that's like an hour drive from here and I'll be living alone in a (probably) in a student-house with 180 other students and yea.. entire new place, new people, new things to do. Exciting and scary.

But the most awesome thing right now is .. SM Town in Paris  because I ninja'd myself and BooLia 2 VIP + goodies tickets and hell yea, we're going to Paris baby!
It's during my exams (start them on the 9th.. SM Town in Paris is on the 10th) but we're leaving my school right after my exam and will surely enjoy it to the max!

It's a bit sad.. JYJ-Homin, but hey, it's atleast 2/5 of my life-dream fulfilled for now and that alone made my entire.. month? haha, idk

Anyways, am officially back and will update more often!

Love~

I remember, a few years ago, it was a winter just like this one. It was so cold that our fingers would be bright red whenever we got outside, do you remember?

It was a winter like this that made me remember all these things.

Small little things that remember me of you.

I still see us walking there. We felt invincible, didn’t we?

I still remember the warmth you gave off. Your deep voice soothing in the midst of the night.

These days I’m afraid to hear your voice. Afraid it might shake up my heart. Afraid that I might break down at the thought of only having your voice around.

Snowflakes turn into water and I have never felt so defeated. As if life slapped me across the face and took everything away.

The soft sound of the piano fills my heart and I miss you.

Whenever I hear your voice, whenever I see your face, I miss you.

I am a fool for thinking like this, aren’t I?

 

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I'm very sorry. My thoughts are so complicated lately.

Let's be honest. I miss the five. I'm a JYJ & HoMin fan but.. being honest, the 5 together was always the best... I miss that.

Dear LJ,

You must hate me right now.. I barely update you and when I do it's a sad update.
Well.. here we go!

So first of all, exams are around the corner, which means breakdowns, but .. until now it's kinda going good.
Though my grades in general haven't been the greatest (Sorry BooLia, I failed French.. again) I feel good. I cried over it, since it's my last year in highschool and I don't want to fail, not this last year.
I've been strangely enough motivated enough to already start studying for my exams that start on the 9th, but it's going good. - Though I've been slacking for 2 days already, shh -

Second, well.. I don't know what to say.. Korea is almost in war.. let's hope it won't be the start of a real war. Let's hope.

Third, I've been horrible in my timing. I used to have schedules for everything, and I would finish them with perfection~ but these days, god, I have so much to do and the days are too short and it annoys me to the extend that I don't finish shit on purpose.

Fourth, I decided I will take a step back from the internet. I've had my glorious years with being on this pc every.single.day.for.hours and enough is enough. From now on I'll limit myself to 1-3 hours a day, depending on whatfor (school /personal use). Then I also decided it's time to lose weight. I have nobody supporting me in that, nope, even mum laughed, BUT Anke said 'When you want to lose weight, you can!' and I CAN. So I will start with eating 3 meals a day (which, yes bad habbit, I never do/did) other than that my midnight snacks are gone, my sprite (if you know me well, I only drink that at home) is gone. Water will be my only friend from now on. Fighting!

Fifth, I felt like sharing something with you. www.box.net/shared/nfjttnqlkf  it's a cover I did with some other girls on Breaking Recods. It's from a long while ago but I think it's awesome~!

Sixth and last. On the happy note, I leave in 3months, 2 weeks & 5 days. We ish exciiiiiiiited! And scared... but excited! :D